((((Rhap))))...so sorry you are in conflict..hope that the Birthday Party goes ok..keewwll if you can maybe embrass that which is important to you, and that is your love for your neice...I know its hard..so sorry huney..but I am sure your neice would be glad to see you there..its just the huge internal conflict makeing it yuckie...family events are very anxiety producing to start with...hope it goes well Rhapsody..good luck..