You hae to take control of your life MELSTAR;We are not VICTIMS of the bad situations that are there WHEN we stop becoming victims;;;;;;;

PLEASE talk to many people,involve in community service when not working,there you will make new friends;There are good and honest people,who are not selfish and will help you;That will be a new beginning;

See you might be having problems that you struggle with;that does not make you invalid;you are strong and trying to cope hence you write here;that means you are already on the path of 'YOUR LIFE IN YOUR TOTAL CONTROL';
Also,irrespective of what other people do to us in our lives,and whatever relation they are and have failed us;we should just our shortcomings and try to correct just us,and we turn into a strong person;If possible forgive all the crappy people who have hurt you in this life and made you loose your self confidence ; hate all the factors that led you to being an alchoholic ;
Please do keep posting ;
Wishing you a happy and healthy life ahead.