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Old Oct 22, 2012, 09:23 PM
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I can't take much more. Today, my moods were the worst they have ever been, I don't know what happened. This morning, I personally thought today was going to be one of my positive days. When I woke up, my moods were pretty much normal, not high or low. But when I got to school, they went up a lot more, they were up for about an hour and a half. After I went to my third class and sat down, they pretty much immediately dropped, I was pretty low. I could barely concentrate at this point, and I remained this way for at least 2 hours. In my one class, I was super aggravated, I almost started to pick on the teacher. It wasn't even funny how mad I was. When I got to my next class, I was the same way. I tried to talk to my friend normally, but I could barely say anything at all, I had nothing to say. But, shortly after that class started, my mood went way up. It felt really good at that time, but I did feel a little troubled about how my moods were changing again. This really good mood lasted for about two and a half hours, maybe even more. I was super hyper, I really wanted to talk. During my next class after lunch, I was pretty positive, but after I sat down, I started to get aggravated again. This stay, shifting back into a depressed mood, which remained for the rest of the day, still present. When I got home, I tried to do my homework, but I was so depressed and aggravated, it was the hardest thing I have ever tried to do. I could NOT concentrate at all, no matter how hard I tried, I kept getting more and more frustrated. I kept wanting to just stop doing my homework and go to bed, and I almost did. But I decided to take a break and do another part of my homework. In the process of getting the items necessary to do this, I almost got aggressive. I couldn't find the one thing, so I almost picked up a big basket containing over 200 pictures, I was about to throw it acrossed the room, but I realized what I was doing before it happened. This really troubled me, I have never gotten that close to doing something like that. Then, I went up and started working. My mood was almost normal again, but then it quickly returned to the way it was before. I did not end up finishing my homework, I was unable to study for my test, and I kept saying rude thugs to my family since I was in such a bad mood. I think the people around me are starting to notice. This had to be the HARDEST day to get through so far, I don't know how much more I can take.
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