John and Cherry- congrats. Hopefully I'll have the strength (or whatever it takes) to stay off drugs as long as you have and not think about them all the time. The guinea pig feeling sounds familiar, except overdiagnosing probably has more to do with ego stroking and medication endorsements than anything else. John, how's not taking meds and staying off dope going? I know if I weren't on the meds right now, I would be thinking about D all the time...

As to what motivated me to quit. It had nothing to do with death, really. I think death is really the least of the problems that come with being an addict. I just didn't want to live the life of a junkie, because that seems a lot worse than death to me. I'd rather make the most of my time here on earth instead of spending it getting sick, doing the daily grind, scoring, getting high, and getting sick again. Yuck. You?