HB, I think OLS meant more along the lines of, waking up feeling worthless and wanting to die, after a pleasant evening and a good night's rest. That worthlessness is uncalled for - None of my friends relate to that... I agree with you and Anika, bp is alot like one huge illusion/hallucination. I have very few triggers (less than 5) so I have random cycles and episodes and it DOES look and feel like a huge illusion. But like Anika said, it leaves alot of leeway to adjust perspectives and perceptions...