Hello everyone!

I think it's great that support groups like this exist. Sometimes an outsider looking in can provide better insight without being biased against or for the person involved. Or sometimes we just need someone to listen to us without being judged, and maybe empathize.

I'm depressed and I've been like this since I was 10 after I found out I was adopted. My adopted family didn't handle it well when I found out. Instead of being counseled or assured I was labeled an ingrate for asking why and who are my biological parents. I'm 27 now, till this day I don't have an answer. I'm still being called an ungrateful bastard even if I don't ask anymore.

Do you think asking why and who my real parents are makes me an ingrate?

Not being able to talk about this to anyone made me suicidal. I have at least 5 (failed) attempts a year that I remember from the time I was 10 yrs old until today.

I decided I need unbiased help - considering the number of times I've actually failed. I've tried opening this up to my family but they just make me feel worse by telling me that it's a wrong, that it's sin. It's really not helping me.

The adoption was an unresolved issue but my bottomless pit of problems never seem to end.

I was raped by my ex boyfriend and he got me pregnant when I was just 18. My family was concerned about their reputation so they wanted me to marry him or have the child aborted. My conscience cannot take the thought of killing another human being so I married him. He abused me sexually, emotionally, physically and mentally.

I asked helped from my family but they didn't help me. They said I have to deal with this, that I have to suffer the consequence of being a slut.

Finally one day my begging worked and my family took back. But only because they were afraid that I might never finish college if I get pregnant again, because my ex-husband would abuse me every night.

I thought things will be better. But my family continue to rub in my face that I'm such a failure and a disappointment.

I tried to redeem myself, I graduated Suma Cum Laude in college but instead of attending my graduation my family decided to skip all together because they don't want to pay the graduation fee.

My son and were unhappy living with my family and my parents were starting to get really angry that they have to take care of my son when I'm not home. My mom won't take care of my son but she won't let me get a nanny for him. So we argued and I ended up being kicked out of the house.

I had to give up being my son and do what I think was best, and that is to have him stay with his dad because they can take care of him. I just graduated at that time and didn't have any savings.

We already filed for a divorce, especially now that my ex-husband is already living with his new girlfriend. So since he has moved on my son is now staying with my former in-laws.

My in-laws are now planning on adopting my son and make me lose my custody.I haven't seen my son for more than a month now, and it's killing me.

To make matters worst I lost my job a couple of months ago. I'm struggling with bills, rent, food and transportation. I can't borrow money from my friends because I don't know when I can pay them.

I'm having a hard time keeping up at work. I've lost my wits, my other abilities and ultimately my self esteem.

I also started dating this guy, he's helping me out a bit but he's not exactly supportive or at least comforting.

This morning, I almost got robbed by two guys who wanted to take my laptop but I was able to run. When I told him this his reaction was, "well you better be more careful next time". I'm traumatized with this situation because I had a friend who was robbed and shot on the head, even if she gave her laptop to the robbers.

So I told him that I wish you could be a little more comforting. He got mad. We can't talk about my problems without it leading into an argument. I have so many issues with him because I already caught him cheating.

I really don't know what else to do.. I need help..

Thank you!

Virtual Hugs to Everyone!