I have mood swings that come in go. I feel angry for no reason at all, mainly towards my parents even though they have been nothing but good and loving to me. I feel irritated when the try to talk to me or ask me question (not always, but many times). There is this voice in my head it's my voice, and my thought, but it doesn't coincide with how I really feel. It talks about their deaths. And other things that hurt me. My depression comes and goes. I'm so sensitive, the slightest thing can make me go into depression mode. I see no future for myself. I feel worthless and pathetic. I have my second appointment with a psychiatrist tomorrow, but for some reason it's like I don't want to get better. If it weren't for my parents, I would have ended my life already.

I'm 21, and recently all this has been getting worse. Sometimes I have days where most of this isn't a problem. Like the world is mine, and I'm going to become this important person, and show the world what I am capable of, then all of a sudden I find myself crying in my room, thinking of ending my life.