I haven't called her yet. I am still not quite at the point where I could handle it being that real. She does free consultations fortunately. I did check out her website.

I called and left a message for my T yesterday afternoon. He never got back to me.

I think I am getting calmer and thinking more clearly today. Knowing that he might not fight for custody makes it easier to explore the options. I have legal shared custody of my oldest son, so maybe my ex wouldn't fight either. We have a good enough relationship where I would be able to talk to him and explain that I wouldn't want to uproot him and take him out of his school and away from his brother. I will ask my T if it were to happen if he would write me an official letter saying that I can take care of my kids. He has said to me before that whenever I was in an episode, that he recognizes that I still put my kids first and that they were never in any danger.