Ok, I do understand. And btw, I didn't say it is 'just' depression talking, as depression is a very strong illness. Depression makes us feel there is no hope, that we will feel this way forever, we have always felt this way, nothing has changed, nothing will change... but it isn't true especially if you are working on changing it... even while you don't believe things will get better... if you take the steps to feel better, things will begin to.

No, you won't wake one day and feel wonderful and happy! It didn't take overnight for you to fall into the darkness of depression, it takes time for you to come out of that darkness. Medicines help many ppl do this.. psychotherapy also helps.

Keep that thought of one day being happy again.. it's a reachable goal.