Been there...used to wander around the house lost and crying continuously...didn't want to live didn't want to die and thinking is this all there is? I had just moved and felt abandonded by my loved ones and all alone. Trying to set the house up and can remember trying to hang a picture just to get it up off the floor. Nail wouldn't go in and I stood there hammering and crying for about an hour. Found out later walls were plaster not drywall and they can be difficult. What helped a little for me was painting the walls. It was mindless and gives you instant gratification...you can see right away that you've done something and that helped my emotions get to a little better place. I still have issues and have to watch myself. Guess I'm saying...I hear you and this is what helped me...