My friend, you cannot worry about what OTHER people want you to be!! All you need to do is to be YOU. YOU are the ONLY person you can be. You cannot be someone that you aren't. If other people don't like that, then they aren't real friends in the first place. A REAL friend takes you as you are, warts and all. A real friend knows all about your faults, and still likes you. If a person tries to change you, he's not a friend -- he's not worth the relationship.

So don't worry about other people and who they want you to be. You can only be YOU. Stick with the friends who like you for who you are, not who you MIGHT be later on.

We've all made mistakes and messed up relationships, but that doesn't make us disgusting or worthless. It might damage us temporarily, but we HEAL. You will too. You need to see a therapist -- ask your doctor to send you to a good therapist. He'll know who you should see. Make the call today! God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee