I sometimes feel that this is all a waste of time. Like it's pointless to be on meds cuz I am feeling fine now. I'm starting to forget how bad it used to be. I know it used to be, but I just can't get that feeling and vibe, per say.

Then I think of all the meds I am on, and I think Wow! WTH? I am really on this much? mood stabalizer, antipsychotic, anti depressant, and sleep med. not to mention the fish oil and the multi vitamin.

I take so many pills... and I feel fine. I can see now why people go off their meds... but logic kicks in and I think... am i overmedicated? I guess not cuz I do feel good.

Ambien is new to me. It only started last night. I called and complained about no sleep cuz it was making me physically sick. weak, not eating, major nausia.... etc.

but this morning I don't feel sick. Not to mention that I worked with a buddy for over 12 hours laying flooring while feeling sick. going back today to finish up too.

Ugh... just had to talk bout it.