Wish me luck guys, for i have started to look for a new job. i cannot stand it at my current job anymore, it is bringing me down so much, it is unhealthy for my character, i am beginning to feel unhealthy inside and i will always put my mental health above anything else, which is why i need change.

i have said several times here on PC that i am so unhappy witht he way my life is right now, and the longer it goes on, the more i feel unwell. for those of you that know me will know how much i need this. whether or not i deserve it is a different matter.

I have started looking for jobs in broadcasting. i am looking into the BBC, i thought that if i can get a job in broadcasting/media, i can gain a few contacts and then start my musical career. but i have no chance of doing that where i am currently. its too negative. ive said before that i need positive, intelectual people around me. and even though im not the most intelligent person around, i still need these type of people around me. i need creativity and inspiration surrounding me, whihc my current job doesnt provide, and neither does my house i live in. which is why i am changing jobs, and when i get a new job, i might look to moving out, depending on how much i earn.

so keep your fingers crossed for me that i can do it. i know i can but keep your fingers and toes crossed anyway, just in case i have it wrong...i hope im not.

take care and speak soon