Thanks Dan and DH, totally get you. It's weird cause I don't feel like I have it bottled up, but I probably do, must be a lot of stuff in there. Thanks for the poem Dan, sums it up nicely.

My bf was gone for the weekend and I need to have that costume done, so far so good, I tried to keep mindful while I was doing, and usually when he is away I tend to crack a bit, but I didn't! I stayed on top of the anxiety when it started to surface. And I tried, but didn't do good with sleeping, but overall I feel pretty normal. Maybe because I've been down. Maybe it helped pull me up a little.

This thing is looking kinda cannibal king.. The skull is just something to hold it up. Antlers are : heavy, weird center of gravity, and they smell terrible when you cut them, I had to cut the scull cap bits off them, OMG I am stuffed up and still, I should have had a gas mask. Bacteria maybe?



I got the skirt done too, gotta make the shirt and finish all up today, attach the other antler. Which I could have used some instructions on, I tried about 5 different ideas before I figured it out.

Maybe I should make things when I am depressed, and paint when I am manic... balance it out. DH, I took art classes before once, when I was younger, it didn't go very well, but I really didn't like the teacher, and he was not flexible, wouldn't let you be creative really, which seemed weird. There is a knit graffiti group here tho, I have been thinking about it, just have to actually go! They knit stuff and then graffiti the town with it, like bands around the trees, flowers in the trees, cozies for the light posts, kinda funny, but I don't want to get in trouble.