From the reading I've been doing here I bet I do have bpII but..... I'm scared. I know it doesn't change anything but mostly 'they' don't want me to feel so great and to control the manic I bet I would be put on something that makes me depressed. I seem to only be in the depressed to ok place for the past year. I don't know what's wrong with me feeling better than ok? I think they are worried about me being reckless and impulsive...... I can be but I am also careful at the same time! I am a person that naturally, before I opened my big fat mouth about my trauma was able to manage and I usually have been known to be a high energy happy person. Now? I have to fake it so much and it is exhausting. I hide my moods because I've gotten so good at it and I can't let anyone see me. My therapist has seen me hopeless but that's it. I have 2 awesome therapists and great insurance too. So thankful and I'm sorry when I read about others that don't. It's not fair.
Thanks, I'm scared, mostly because I will fall into a pit if I gain weight.