Welcome to PC. I have BPD and if you look at the requirements for BPD you will find that you fit it. If you look at the web site for The National Alliance of BPD, you will find the criteria for the diagnosis. There are nine symptoms and you need to have five of them in any combination. I don't know if this is good news to you or not but be rest assured there is a treatment for it. DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) was designed specifically for those suffering with BPD and has been proven to be very effective. Best wishes.