((Everyone)) thank you.this thread has been very supportive and informative, I kinda knew that feelings would be rough for allot of us...but I am learning so much about emotions..how to recognize them not just by words..but by trying to remain conscious in the moment that they are being processed...which is so very hard..what I find frustrating is that my system will counteract the process..I feel something intense starting to unfold..then its like an eraser comes along and erases it from the blackboard..and I am left confused, and mute..my gosh the intensity is so wow..but only for a few seconds..dont even get a chance to identify it before its vanishes and I am left staring into space...or just agitated..allot of times with a frontal headache that disappears along with the emotion..I have noticed this occuring with the stuttering and tics too..just a little wierdness..

Thank you all oh so much for sharing and giving input, this is quiet an endeavor...and it is frustrating..and I appreciate knowing that we are not alone in our battles and burdens...take care all..gentle hugs and thoughts...