Hi Sila

I'm so sorry for what has happened to you. I also suffer from the after effects of childhood sexual assault. Please continue to post and share with your therapist your feelings. It really does help to keep trying to let it out. I've seen therapist for over 25 years and have found that different stages of my life really triggered me alot. From personal experience I can tell you that stuffing it down only works for a little while before it starts bubbling back up. Like currently I'm back to therapy from stuffing and it has blown up in my face to the point of fears of suicide again.

You deserve to heal, please know that. Take gentle care...