roflmao Bless your heart Hamster! From the build up, I was prepping myself for something unimaginably heinous!!!

I do think you know it's good you recognize it's bad, and I do wish you'd log out, sure, but it's not as horrific as you made it out to be, I don't think...yes, where it me, I'd be upset, but it doesn't make you a depraved human being or anything. I think you'll lose interest eventually, unless his emails are THAT interesting...I'd imagine it's a healthy mix of spam, sales pitches, male enhancement crap (seriously...I'm 19, and why am I inundated with that of all things?? :/), and some correspondence. It'll likely lose the draw. My guess is the flirtation with "danger" and the taboo of it is what keeps you logging on...would that be a safe wager?

lol But please Hamster, it's not the end of the world. Perhaps not the best thing to be doing, sure. But it's not nearly as bad as you make it out to be. While I don't condone it, and it is bad, it's not a mortal sin. You're not a bad person because of this.

Hugs,
Harley