i got out of the hospital a week ago tomorrow for having a plan to kill myself. i was better, but the day i got out i started cutting for the first time in four months. my t made me throw away all my tools last night, and all today i have been feeling numb. not happy, sad, mad, nothing. all i know is that i am depressed and thinking badly again. i dont even know what to do.i have legit reasons for being depressed, being abused and practically abandoned by my dad, but idk i feel that they arent legitament reasons to be depressed and that im stupid and should just be happy. why am i so stupid.