Sorry, Tink, that you are still feeling so down. You have a right to ask for help. Have you not been given help, in the past, when you needed it and asked? Sometimes, we do not get the response we need. I know. I've been there. What we get from going to see a T can see inadequate to the pain we face. Are there no family or friends who care? If not, that can be awful. We care here.