Does anyone else have a fear of psychiatric wards? I mean but I still have to go sometimes. But I spend the entire time in tears, freaking out. And it usually just extends my stay. Which makes me more upset. One time this went on for ninety days. I have one hospital who is aware of this and lets me out after 72 hours, no matter what. But they just got sent to court for letting people out too early because they had two suicides. So now it may extend my stay.

I don't know. Sometimes I find the only way I can survive is to make friends. But I hate making friends in psychiatric wards. But that's what they want to see. I hate making friends, because they never last. I never keep in contact with anyone. I can make friends. If I try. But sometimes it's just not the place or the time and psychiatric wards are not the place or the time. I am too distraught.

But if you don't socialize you get more deductions.

I hate those places. God I hate them.