I'm pretty sure that the title says most of it.

I feel so low at this moment, I feel angry and feel like I am never going to get 'better'.
In the mood I am in atm part of me doesn't want to care.

I have a best friend whom is also my ex-partner whom has been there for me from the get-go and unfortunately is having a one-sided friendship because I can't get my shite together.

I am stuck in the child-like way of thinking, I overly procrastinate, I remain stagnant in a lot of the areas of my life, routine and attitude I 'should and could' be fixing.

I go through so many emotions in minutes and the same 'routine, course' happens over and over again.

I put myself on a feckin circle route and feel like the victim (1 part does), 2nd part is my inner punisher and bully, the third inner part is majorly depressed, as well as anxious, the fifth part is the child who fantasizes about how life could be, should be and the same goes for people including myself and the sixth 'last' part I have identified is the one that wants to get going and fix things but is incredibly over run by all of the other parts.

I like to think that I am changing and getting better but am always brought back to reality by my bestie..... It is very disheartening...

*Pause between Rants*