...darn it!!

everytime I emerge from a period of episodes...squeeze through all the chaos and pop out the other side!...

what the hell goes on with how serious I am and feel...disturbs me somewhat to agree with what insane new reality this becomes that in order to function "properly" I can't crack a real smile or be the least bit idiotic...like I'm scared...

cos I don't dare wanna get too excited right??

might turn into a LUNATIC again...and immediately!....aaaaaah OMG!!



...what the hell is "properly" anyway? ....makes me feel as creative as a wet sandwich!