I am filled with this... doubt. What if everything I believe is a lie? I mean, everything? What if everything everyone tells me is true? Is there something wrong with me for thinking these things?
I believe that America is a militaristic despotism... Is that true? I believe that the War of Northern Aggression was a genocide against freedom... Is that true? I believe that sports are there only to control the masses. I believe that we are all slaves... I believe the U.S. Federal Government is illegal. I believe all sorts of things that no one agrees with. People seem to hate me for it and think there is something wrong with me... Am I delusional? Am I just seeing the world as a darker and scarier place then what it is? What if I'm wrong about everything? Am I wasting my life on this? Am I actually free? And if I am right, then is everything hopeless? Should I have just stayed ignorant. If I had listened to the authorities, they wouldn't have persecuted me this way. They never had a right. Just because they were illegitimate I despised them, and so I am eternally punished them. They deliberately tried to break me because I could see through them... Some people are just knowing the truth. We are called anti-authoritarians... We are persecuted, drugged, and locked away. Even when we are still children. But sometimes I wonder if I am right, or am I raging against a machine that isn't there... I need some clarity before this destroys my mind. I mean worse than what it is. I have begun to fear that there will soon be purges...