Bless your heart. In your relatively short lifetime, you have had nothing but trauma. Absolutely NOTHING but trauma. And you've had NO support from anyone!! My heart goes out to you. I cannot imagine having to give up your son. I'm so sorry.

I think your parents acted very badly, especially about the adoption. NO, I don't think you're an "ingrate" for wanting to find your biological parents!! I think they should have helped you in every way to find them!!! It doesn't mean that you would love them more than your adoptive family -- it just means you need to find them! I totally understand that! My daughter gave up a baby for adoption when she was 16 - it was her choice, as she knew she couldn't care for a child and she wanted to finish school and go on to college. Thru an agency, we found a lovely family and they adopted the baby. When the child was 16, she contacted my daughter, and they met -- all with the approval with her adopotive parents, who are just great! We all met at the same time and it was wonderful. That's what SHOULD have happened for YOU. I pray that you are able to find your parents, dearheart.

Your current boyfriend doesn't sound like your ideal mate, my friend. You deserve better than a cheating bum! If he's not supportive, and doesn't even listen to you, you should throw that one to the curb. You deserve the BEST -- just think of what you've accomplished!! You graduated with highest honors from college!!! That's wonderful! But I think your self-esteem has taken a huge hit, and you could use some therapy.

Call your medical doctor and have him get you a referral to a good therapist. Therapy would do you a world of good, to get your self-esteem back where it ought to be. Settling for some guy who cheats, doesn't listen, isn't supportive isnt' a good sign of someone with high self-esteem. So go to therapy and work on it, ok? You won't regret it. I wish you the very best. Please let us know how things work out too, will you? God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee