My good friend is coming with me. I do have a sponsor, and she's a great lady. She has a lot of the same problems I do. So she understands. My one month was last week but I was so depressed that I didn't leave the house except to go to work. I'm feeling ok enough right now to go. I am happy that I am strong enough to not let that demon get to me anymore. But like they say, day to day. I think about it quite often, but I don't give in to it. When my best friend and I graduated high school 11 yrs ago we didn't think we'd be away from each other still. But we talk on a daily basis, which is great, but I wish she was here. She is my twin soul, soul mate, whatever you want to call it. She's like a sister, but deeper. She knows me so well that she might as well live inside my head, and I'm the same way with her. We complete each others sentences lol. We've known each other for 18 years. She knows all my problems and I know hers. She is an alcoholic as well. She's depressed. She knows how I feel. Her family is just as dysfunctional as mine, except her dad was actually there for her when she was growing up. Lord I miss her. I keep trying to get her to come up here. She hates Tallahassee. I'm on the lookout for a job that would fit her. She'd move if she had a job to go to. Toki is one of my favorites, but Charles Offdensen is my ultimate favorite Have you ever seen a Metalocalypse concert? I went to one in 2009 in North Myrtle Beach. The guys who do the voices were the band, Tommy Blacha and Brendon Small, and it was awesome. Clips from the show were in the background and they did voiceovers. And there were other totally awesome metal bands that played before them. Mastadon was the biggest one besides them.