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I am glad your friend is ok, that must have been frightening to you. It is understandable that you got to the place you did and just didn't care about the battle against cutting. You had other things that were needing your attention. Congratulations on the job. That is awsome. I run to my job to avoid life sometimes. It is a distraction from my inner world. It is a stage and I am an actor on it. I can pretend I am normal at my job.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft