(((Petunia)))))
I so appreciate you and what you said.
It's so scary though to have done this. Just the realization of who did what and when and looking at my life and seeing how fractured it is. Then I start feeling broken all over again. Broken and not real. Not a real whole person. Just a bunch of broken off parts. And if I see myself that way, how broken up others must see me.
Really down on me right now....
Thinking too much.
But afraid to allow myself to feel what all this is stirring up.
w_i