Also.. i feel like I need to redeem myself every time I go through an episode and people see it. I am constantly apologizing on these boards and every time people tell me to knock it off lol.

do you feel that way too? I know that it is natural, but I guess I'll be the one to say... it's all good! You have nothing to feel that way about, assuming that you do, and that it's all good in the hood!