I've been there, alot. You are not alone! It can be overwhelming, feeling like it is emmitting from the core of your existance. It can feel like it is who you are, setting you apart from the others who carelessly trample over you, and it can feel like it is just natural for them to endure what they have coming to them.

that is the way it is for me when I get that way. The rage turns to hurt, making me more and more hateful. Then I tend to turn that hate inward, and it triggers me for self harm.

So no, you are not alone.... I'm right there with you.