Okay I had this all typed out and nice and then I closed out the tab stupidly. Hopefully I can get it the same.

I apologize if this isn't even in the right category, but I still hope someone will read it.

7th grade I went back to public school from homeschool, and I didn't care much about my appearance at first. I made some pretty good friends, but the school district is snobby, rich, and they don't talk to you if you're unattractive.
Thus, I started feeling ugly, worthless, not good enough, unattractive....
7th-8th grade I started getting really low self esteem. it got even worse when I got to high school this year. I stayed for the first nine weeks but I'm homeschooled again.
I had decided to change up my appearance totally and my friends didn't like that very much. Most of them just stopped talking to me or lied to me daily and made me miserable. Then just stopped talking to me. One of my friends called me a ***** but put it on my other friend (who is still my friend). Whenever it was really her.
I'm sorry if I worded that weird.
I feel really lonely and confused, and my self esteem and depression is worse than ever.
My current closest friends are from the internet. I like my friends on the internet more than my friends who had betrayed me.
I get the speech about how "looks don't matter" all the time. I'm tired of it. I know looks don't matter, but that still doesn't help the fact I go on facebook every day and come across pretty girls who get 70 likes on their pictures and they just have a perfect everything.
I still have the need to change my appearance, despite if my parents don't want me to.
I'm so tired of feeling not good enough.