Hi, welcome to the forums, I thank you for saring that. You say you do not feel comfortable discussing this with your parents. If you do not feel that you are able to discuss this with them, do you have a guidance counselor at school that you think you could talk to about this and help you talk to your parents as for as options go, and if you feel that you would like to get some kind of help from a Therapist, or someone to help you with these feelings and emotions.
If you like to write, perhaps you could write a letter to your parents explaing how you are feeling. I hope you continue to post and let us know how you are doing.

Take Care,
Kris

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