Thanks everyone.

It took me 3 tries to get the hotline to understand what I needed. It's through my insurance. You'd think these people would be trained to listen... >.>

I've got a call in to a social worker now near my house. I saw her before I was diagnosed. She wasn't bad. Kind of happy puppy rainbows, but maybe now that I'm diagnosed with something... we'll see. She's close to home, like 2 blocks from the house.

The rage is less now... it's like a tsunami. I keep crying off and on. so I'm trying to stop. I have to sit at my desk and smile and be perky. Can't do anything physical now, so just have to ride it out.