Again, Thank you Costello,
All so thoughtful & such great insight. I know exactly what you are talking about..."draining". I am here seeking some sort of comaradre that I can cope. So you or any1's reply are heartfelt & appreciated 10 fold. I have felt that many times has naturally renedered me in a so to speak vegetative state. See, my bf has this very rational & intelligent personality, at times I don't even understand why he has such thoughts. The 'moving in & out" very very sad & difficult. My lil guy the 1st time he left would look for him & say Dad or call out in confusion. He is the 1st man I have ever let get close to myself or him.Fact is, I changed my whole world to accomodate "us". Moved to a new town...new home, business,etc etc.New beginnings are great...but I feel isolated at times. So least amount of instability the best! I believe my bf held in his struggles for so long, our love & his confidence in me brought it out. Idk, it just ius so tough & sad.
Yesterday I took a day to myself.One of pampering, a long drive w/the music cranked... bought some new clothes... was able to enjoy it too He was accepting of it...actually didn't call me 5 times either. When I have to travel for work oh geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze! Anyway- I'd like to hear more abt your Son. If you like? I too hope "love" for him & everyone. Putting our lives on a shelf, doesn't make us bulletproof- we just collect all the things we wish we could get down for! I am a mover... but life surely throws big blocks in our paths! Thanks Again!