He sounds like a real piece of s***. He also sounds insecure, immature and selfish, and probably feels the need to belittle others to make himself feel more important. Weirdly, I find that a lot with men who are short. They need to make up for their lack of height by being jerks. I live with my family too and yes, they do drive me up the wall sometimes too. I'm feeling ok enough now to get my own apartment in November. I know how you feel about the money too. That's the reason I had to move back in with my family. I worked quite a few menial jobs before I got the one I have now, which is in my field. McDonald's was where I worked at one of the worst points in my life. I'm an alcoholic and I abused rx painkillers, and I'd hide them in an antibiotic bottle and take them to work and pop two at a time in the back. I hated it there so much that I went to go on a week's vacation and never went back. If at all possible, stay away from fast food. Since you're depressed, it will definitely not help. Retail isn't that bad, on the other hand. I was a cashier at Lowe's for a while and it was a great place to work. I know what you mean about a real job though. It took me 3 years to find one in my field. My dad is a conservative too, and he shoves it down our throats too. Thank GOD he doesn't live with us. Always with the Obama jokes, and he's racist to boot. I'm bi and he's a homophobe, I'm liberal and he's ultra conservative, I'm not racist and he is, you can imagine what a great time we have when we talk. He's such a good Christian. NOT. Thank goodness you have family though. Sometimes, when I'm feeling really bad, I literally force myself to do something. I tend to oversleep a lot on the weekends, I mean like if you let me, I'll sleep 15+ hours. Even though I have lost most of the enjoyment I got out of things too, I try to do at least one thing that I used to like, like going out for a cup of coffee, or browsing walmart or something, anything, to get me out of the house. Do you still see a therapist? I know it really does help to talk to someone. I don't know where I'd be, if I'd even still be here, if it wasn't for meds and therapy. When I first started taking them, they took forever to get into my system. I felt worse as well, but give it time. If in about 2-3 weeks you don't feel any difference at all, then maybe talk to your doctor. It takes time to get into your bloodstream. Are you still a student? Schools might offer these services to students free of charge. When I started FSU in 2001 they had free services to the students. After an attempt at jumping off of a 4 story dorm, I had a breakdown and went home to NC. But when I started back to my local college at home in spring 2002 I got help there and was able to make it through. Since then I've had ups and downs, like a rollercoaster, but the therapy and meds did help. I've been in a downward spiral since 2008 when I started grad school, and had another mental breakdown and had to leave and come back home. I think sometimes it comes in cycles for me. I don't know about others. It doesn't help that I'm heartbroken about a guy as well. I can't say I know how you feel about that bc I was never in a relationship with him, but all the same, it hurts. Don't listen to what that morons say to you either. He only says that to try to bolster his own self image. She sounds like a manipulative b****. I have terrifying dreams too. I think it comes with the territory. Some of the meds I'm on cause vivid dreams as well. Unlike being an insomniac, I'm a hypersomniac. If I'm left alone, I will sleep 15+ hours. I hate it, I wake up with a headache and my back hurts.