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Don't know where i am at emotionally.
I think my mind is reacting to the world, to my thesis and a job i am applying to (and stiff scared of it), dealing with my mom and our houses...
I fallen into some state where it's all unreal. Seeing things. Cats, dogs, people. And predator drones (that was a scary one).
Reality is becoming fragmented, like a bad broadcast. I get stuck on details. I lose track of time and space. It's not continuum to me anymore... I just skip and flip through it. Got lost in town where I lived for years (went there for a consultation of my thesis... which went well I think, but I was bit out there through it too... after I went for a walk... and all of sudden found myself by some factory...).
Not sure what it is........... all i know is I need to be present. Not flipping back and forth in time and all that.
Maybe life is trying to tell me something, but i cannot decipher now. Not sure if I will be able to do so... ever.
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