granite, I can hear your pain about therapy. It's so hard to let T in, isn't it? I know the urge is to quit because you're getting to the painful stuff, the "meat" of therapy.

You've told T a lot, and she hasn't kicked you out. She will be there for you whether you sit and are silent, or whether you talk. I may be wrong, but I think you've gone so fast that it's a bit overwhelming for you right now, so you're shutting down. That seems normal to me. I think if you keep going, you will get on track again.

Please don't quit. You know that T is helping you, and wants to help you more. You've said that in recent threads. You're not going backwards. You're just stopping at a rest area for a little while.