Hi ! Do you still drink Roxyanne? If you do, that might be why they won't forgive you. Do you think you have a drinking problem?
It would seem that after 6 years they would forgive you.

I would think that if you SINCERELY apologized, they would talk to you and try to understand. Have you done this before, or something like this? Why do you say they are "fed up" with you? That makes it sound like you've done stuff like this before.

If you've done this several times and they ARE fed up, then I really don't know what to tell you. If you're still drinking, then STOPPING drinkiing might convince them that you're truly sorry! And quitting can be very hard if you have a problem with drinking. You might need help. I am a recovering alcoholic, so I know all about problem drinking. I had to go to AA in order to stop drinking.
And maybe your depression will ease up if you stop drinking too because alcohol is a depressive -- it MAKES you depressed. So you might want to think about it Roxyanne. If you need help, I'm sure you can find AA near you. And we're here to help too. God bless you my friend. Hugs, Lee