I totally agree with you. And if you read back through my posts there was a time where I was in out right refusal to go, but it made my life very difficult and incredibly stressful to fight my providers all the time. I am in the process of getting a therapist who works with DID clients. I have issues working with just trauma trauma therapists, because when I go to work on the trauma, my parts become suicidal, so I need someone who knows how to work with parts and calm parts. But that same team leader who likes to put me in hospitals is fighting every move I make. She'll yell at me and tell me I just need a trauma therapist and it's too hard to find a DID specialist. But just like you said. IT'S MY RECOVERY and I KNOW what's BEST for me.

Now I never have to physically see her again, but she has control of my case for a few weeks longer. So if I try to make a move towards getting a DID therapist, she'll have something to say about it. This is the same woman who wanted me to work with a caseworker as a therapist. She obviously does not value therapy work, nor does she listen about how much my therapy means to me.