Cool news, my T had a cancellation and I got to go in today. Bad news is I feel worse now than I did before I went in. My T is really nice. I just feel like I have these two layers where my inner layer feels. And it feels like crap. Like a heavy boulder scraping against pavement and crumbling. And the outer layer feels nothing. And I wish they would match, so I cut myself to try to get them to match, but it isn't working. And no matter how I try to get my outside to match the pain I feel on the inside, I can't. So now I feel stuck.

Ughh why do I come back from the T and feel so much worse than right before. I didn't feel nearly this bad a few hours ago. It's early but think I should just go to sleep. I bet I'll wake up feeling better.