I've self-harmed for about 3 months now.  Every once in a while something convinces me to try and stop.. but of course I never do. I just cut today.. a little bit ago actually, and I guess it wasn't that big of a deal because I had broke on Sunday.. That day... I was liek withdrawling from not cutting.. It was only like 5 days!!  And I was shaking, tensing, and my hands were in fists.. that was me trying to resist. I broke then.. Cut really deep. Today was the same, and I fear I may have just readdicted myself to cutting to try and get rid of my depression. I think I go to meet a therapist on the 14th of November, but I really don't think I can hold on that long.. I've attempted suicde multiple times.. I'm thinking about it, but I want a reason not to... Why shouldn't I? I have nothing and no one to live for.  
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There may be a smile on her lips, but there are scars on her wrists.
Last edited by Christina86; Oct 24, 2012 at 10:19 PM.
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