I'm sorry you are going through a hard time, granite.
It does make sense, to me, for you to look for a T who can work with you in a way that allows you to express yourself in a way that works better for you. Some of us don't talk so well, and different Ts are able to work with that in different ways. And like others have said, that's ok. Sometimes I feel a little downcast by reading PC because it seems like I should be able to do what other people here do... but you know what? We all do things at our own pace, in our own way, and talking isn't necessarily the only way to do T. Your talent and ability to create art is something I really think could help you in therapy if you find a T who can work with that.