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Originally Posted by Goingtogetthere
You're therapist was very wrong to have called the police. I'm sorry that happened to you, and I would definitely have an issue with trust if that had happened to me. Shame on the police for just walking in.
I would just throw out something for you to think about. You knew she was very concerned about you, and what she threatened.You said you did not have Internet to respond. Why did you not use your phone to call her or at least text her if you did not want to speak? Is there possibly a connection to the hug and kiss on the forehead that had you thinking this way, "I don't deserve to feel good. I'm a bad person!I'll don't deserve her. I need too much. I'm too needy! She'll hate me! She'll leave me! Etc."
TC, only you have the answer, not your therapist, not your mom, not your family, not me, and not the people on the forum. Your move TC.
I'm sending lots of hugs, and positive thoughts your way. And, I wish you clear thinking as you deal with some truths about yourself.
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I DIDNT know what she threatened. I didnt get the emails until AFTER everything happened and I went to mcdonalds to use their internet.
iwas not trying to talk to her shes the one who wanted to talk to me, so SHE should have texted me, not the other way around.
and yea I do feel like I dont deserve her and shes going to leave me, but I still ask for and get hugs. So.... ::shrug:: I don't want to give her up. (well, I do every few weeks.) she said "what the ****, you cant just go quitting therapy every time it gets hard." i said yes ican i do it all the time, lol.
and she said well fine then it has consequences.
and she asked why i came to my session tonight after i spent all day quitting.
and i said because its my time. she laughed and said she was tempted to give my time away just to see what i would do since i told her repeatedly i wasnt coming. i'm glad she didnt bc that would have upset me way more than the police thing. its my time.