I like that idea, and I think that somehow, there's gotta be something for you, cusack, despite your situation. I'm not there with you, or in your head, but I do encourage you to hang in there, and keep open your mind to see any or every possibilities that come along! The best! BTW, I too, have felt really down and blocked before, myself. I do believe there's usually a healthy way out somewhere, in that type of situation!