i guess no one can teach you that your bf doesn't determine your self-worth, nor do your bad dreams. i heard once that dreams are the way we work out things that are bothering us? does this sound right to you? what is really going on that you have learned to let outside factors make you feel bad about yourself?
i wish i could help you un-learn this.
a person, at their core, either learns self-love or doesn't, i have no idea how it works....but imagine it has to do with our parents.
my own depression (diagnosed in 1994) is directed out. i feel the world is crappy, mean, and ugly.
please try not to be so hard on yourself.