From reading your posts, it sounds like your emotions are out of control alot of the time, and you aren't always stable. So I can understand perfectly why your t worried about you and resorted to having the police check on you when she didn't hear back. She couldn't have known that your Internet was down. You both were used to emailing back and forth. So not getting a reply from you would seem odd, especially when she knew you were already upset and wanted to quit.

It's unfortunate that the cops walked right in, but that's not your t's fault. I'm sure she didn't tell them to just barge in.

I do understand how hard it is to manage intense emotions. I struggle with it all the time myself. And i understand too the fear of attachment and rejection, and the insecurity of never being sure if t cares enough. But i can tell from what you write that your t cares alot about you and really wants to help you. Please try to keep that in mind. Think about what she HAS done for you, rather than what she doesn't do.

I agree that the boundaries have been a little sloppy, and she needs to make her boundaries more clear. I think you need that.

I guess my biggest worry is that you have what seems like a really good caring t, but if you don't find a way to manage your emotions and give her a break, you may end up burning her out and losing her. I would hate to see that happen to you.

But this is just my opinion, and i could be totally wrong.