Yep, I hate it too. Hope you will feel better soon Dan.

And when I hate, I really hate that I hate. That wasn't part of the bargain that I came here / to this planet for. It's a nasty feeling. I usually just try to isolate until the hate dissipates and I can get calmed down. I know better, and I know I'm better than hating, but it happens.

Hang in there and wait for it to pass. Nasty emotions are like a tornado you gotta wait for it to pass and hope it doesn't destroy your house.