Firstly I want to thank everyone for your help and support.

I have been really struggling with these thoughts since I posted this, I do find it hard to reach out for help, Last night though I felt bad and my husband found me in a state and I told him how I felt, This morning I called my crisis team now this has made me angry as all they said was " Go to the shops" How is this going to help?

What have I got to do for them to listen? I can't call my T as she is the one that told me to call the crisis team when I feel like this.