Thanks Jan1212. Oh yeah, last week my mom volunteered me to drive 30 miles to my brother's house to watch his dog while he went out of town for a day! She knew my car was having intermittent problems. She was on the phone with my brother while I was at her house after I just helped her jump her car b/c she left the keys turned to 'on' and drained the battery, and he couldn't even give her any advice to pass onto me. He tests engine for a living! He just whined to my mom about how he felt like he has no family b/c he has no one to watch his dog while he went out of town for work. His employer even said to bring the dog!! I think everyone is just fed up with hearing about my problems...........I handle everything myself though, so it's nothing to them anyway. I just feel like such a nuisance to everyone, but they don't even help me. Why am I even here? Just to help other people? As for my boyfriend, when I try to talk to him about anything, he usually says, "It's your fault, you should've done this or that." If I ask him to keep the tv down because I have a headache, he says,"When do you not have a headache?" I think he just thought I was supposed to be there for him, but since he has kids and exes, that I should just expect to come last in his life. The best thing he says, "Are you kidding? I put you first, I'm always here." I don't even understand that statement, of course he's always here, he lives here. He has to live here because he pays so much child support now, he can't afford to live alone. You know, now I'm thinking it might have been a good thing that I didn't get that job because I probably would've started helping him with child support, etc., and then really hate myself even more. Sorry for the rambling........